So what does the logo mean?

Visitors may have noticed the new IDK logo. It's got the first incarnation of the Starship Enterprise speeding away at light speed. While the title of the blog slowly comes into view, you may notice that the font is Klingon Dagger. What it means for me is a change of direction before I let readers into my personal life as I chronicled a year in my life. From my enagement to special occasions I shared all.

At the time I was hiding a terrible amount of personal grief. My dad had been diagnosed with cancer, the thought of losing him and having to support my mother along with a new family scared me. To be honest I didn't handle the situation well I became a nervous wreck which became apparent by my actions and my words.

People reprimanded me in whatever way they thought was appropriate. Regardless I have come to terms with my father's loss and I continue on. Responsibilities that previously weren't mine fell upon my shoulders. To most they seem mundane paying the bills providing support to an aging mother, basically becoming head of a household. But for me its a brave new world.

Having recovered from my emotional trauma I forge ahead. A constant source of strength for me is my wife. She's had a tremendous influence in my life. I am rediscovering my religion. I know some of you would like me to be more liberal but that just doesn't work for me. I feel at ease with myself when I practice my religion the way it suppose to be practiced, with no adulterations or compromises.

So where does that leave me and my readers. Well I suppose the window into a different culutre will no longer be there. It's just to personal for me to have to share everything going on in my life. I am cutting back on writing and trying to focus my energy on the game I mentioned before. To be honest my motivation has been waning thanks to my new job and responsibilities. I much rather plop down in front of the TV and watch leno then fry my brains some more pouring over source code.

I lurk on other UCF sites and find Jim's views into the Fort Hood shooting, insightful. Plus my heart felt congratulations to Matt on his new addition. Just think of me as the rogue UCFer, Peace.

Islam in America

The writing bug has bitten me since my last post and I want to share something else. For the most part people understand that Muslims are peaceful people and a few bad apples are giving them a bad name. But then what? For me and other like minded individuals its simply not enough to tolerate Islam. It would give me tremendous pleasure if others embraced Islam. That's why stories like these are so inspiring:

Long time, no see

I haven't been hanging around here for awhile. For that matter I haven't been hanging around in cyberspace for that much either. The biggest reason for a sudden drop in writing is laziness and general sense of no creativity. That's thanks to a back breaking job that sucks up most of my time and leaves me feeling like a zombie at the end of the day.

When I am online my time is spent communicating with GF via email. We miss each other a lot and check in once or twice a day. Right now I am working on paperwork to get her processed for immigration. I am using a lawyer that's been a friend of the family for a long time. The other portion of time is spent looking for a job.

NO response as of yet everyone is sitting on there collective hands. The closest I got was a phone interview but that was only because of a close contact. He rejected me because of a lack of experience, which isn't really my fault seeing how I just got out of school. Now I have to rely on strangers to pick me out of a dozen or more strangers for a job interview.

They say not to get discouraged but that's easier said then done. I intend to to get discouraged and already have. For the moment I am resigned to my lowly job as a clerk at my uncle's pharmacy while I look for work online during the weekends. I am living alone which means I am able to make ends meet on my meager salary. What worries me is later on down the road when my expenses increase I'll be needing more than I have right now.

Anyways that's why having faith comes in handy while others would take their lives in dire circumstances I tend go nuts, recover and then figure out what to do.